i never said it like I'm about to say it now but its time i free myself its so much anger and bitterness build in me that i have to release it or ill kill myself on it alone maybe someone understand i cry out for help but it seems no one hears me i cry at night but there no one to wipe the tears i know they say when your at that point pray to GOD but how could that be when i blame him for being rape at the age of 12 by my mother best friend son i was so afraid there was nothing i could do i wanted to say something so bad but i didn't i was afraid every time we went north i hated to go i never forgot that night i cried i was only a little girl every time i look into his eyes knowing what he did to me i never wanted my mom and her friend to leave so i can kill him and let him suffer i wanted to let him feel what i felt and feel at night when we went north i stayed up at night everyday i got up with a knife wising and hoping he will touch me again so i can cut every piece of flesh and laugh and ask him how do It feel but he never touch me again i believe he seen the anger in my eyes and still till this day i still feel the same thing for him nobody knows what goes on behind my smile
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