WOMAN TO WOMAN

Im actually glad that you were brave and bold enough to call my house, so that we can discuss this woman to woman, and try to work some of these things out, so we can compare notes on some dates and times trying to figure out some of his tired ass lies.

Im actually glad to be hearing from the lips that left the lipstick on my mans collar, even though he told me he was working late, to try and earn a couple of extra dollars. I loved and trusted him so his bullshit I would swallow even though my intuition would never let me sleep.

so i guess the gaps in our relationship is where you thought you would fit in ? just a insecure woman chasing after a man who got a woman. but yo pussy is not deep enough for a man to fall in love with, and this we already know cause your skirt is so short that it already shows your best assets so there’s no point in tryna figure out why you askin after all. He is not fucking you for your mind! =)

and you still young at heart so you think this is real cute, telling your friends that he is cheating on me but he really wants you, but the reality is that we are nothing alike.

When he cant deal with me, he goes to you to get me off his mind but it never works see..

He gets really still as he lays inbetween the sheets that he is tuning you out coz hes picturing me because you put up with that shit I just wont deal with coz im strong in who I am… and he loves that about it, its just that sometimes he just cant stand the reality that he doesn’t deserve a woman like me.

when he feels that way, well that’s when he comes crawling to your dirty sheets, and just like a child you thought you would call me to share?

Calling me to disclose to me the colour of my mans underwear. You tell me like I don’t already know HELL I BOUGHT THEM!!! try to tell me bout how my man fucks, bitch. I taught him!"

So why don’t you do me a favour, when he comes over tonight, and he’s coming and you coming and you both cumin, at last just simply lean back his head and look him deep in his eyes…

YOU WILL SEE ME WAVING BACK AT YOU…

SECRET

Sometime i sit and think how it all will come to a end as i sit and wonder much thoughts come out so let me write my list of goodbyes just in case i will never see you again

+Markisha Guillot - A close friend when i first came around never cant forget those days in Oak Grove and Barbra almost beat me in the principle office a friend that has been there from the start travel too Trinidad just to get a head start but at the end no matter how far away or years we separate your always a child hood friend i could never replace or get again


Georgette Hyman- A ride or die chick told me so many secrets and yet i still could never repeat again i tried so hard too keep you focus but you never did want to make a change lost you in this world cause you wanted to follow the fame if i never said it sorry for the neglect i gave you but i couldn't hold back while you sit in shame.

Sharita Lorrick- Your my boo no matter what from me slamming you you punching me buying trucks and cars taking trip to islands getting stuck in the sea (lol) painting pools taking risk for one another kicking people out the house crying over each other shoulder meeting flying from state to state getting caught up in NEW YORK during the black out crazy fun showing how to use a tampon (lmao) cussing drew at the end of the day i will forever love you your my sis friend shelter and yeah if i was gay "You ll be my number one draft pick"

+Tonya Fulton-Thomas When i meet you i was a Outkast just so happens to be with some chicks that where some numbers. Apparently we became attach too each other since that day you where a bit tipsy i have never left your side like the family will say i may be around in March and you wont see me at all till November granted i have a God-child from you that is smart but a attitude like her mother even tho you never listen when i tell you to do something and you turn back around and say "i should have just listen" in heart your rich you mean well and for that you ll always have a spot to sit on my red couch


Jacques Charles-Pierre (jack)- I gave you 5 years of my life to find out in the middle of that 4th year it was all a waste of time. You wasn't man enough to tell me. but that's the circle of life i forgave you a long time ago just thought you should know to be honesty you taught me allot we had more fun in our history

+Beverly Chin  "Treat her like a baby sister protect her like your own" Love you more than i think i should i would carry you if i really could I only want whats best for you. You have a great heart but damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn you have a FUCK UP! attitude but i guess its just the misconception you bring i would do anything for you but sometimes i wish you see things differently not that its an attack but just knowing whats in front of you showing love from me is hard but if you ask sharita i took you under my wing like you where my own i may not agree with some things you do and even tho it hurt me i still take up for and put you on a pedal stool so no matter what rather good or bad ill always Love You!.


Jackie Perez- When i needed it the most God put you in that place never had to share one sexual moment too know the "opputunist" stood in the room you paid a good deed you told me i shouldnt have and it save me from going straight to hell i paid you off like a keeper would but somehow things got misunderstood i took a plea just to cut a contract i must say it was all worth it. and i want to say thank you for that

+Dana Roberts  When i first came too you it was strictly business no strings attached after 6 years our friendship grew far from that one connect. made money together had shared tears together one person that always been straight foward and not ashamed to hold anything back i remember when you left your job i think i was more proud of you that day i knew then my friend will elavate higher and wont look back im just proud you have the balls to do what some always imagine


+Antonio DJBOSS
From Antonio to tonio to tony to ughhhhh BOSS our first greeting was just plain funny we ended up having more to talk about you became my brother my friend my ride out partner a special bond that no one could ever amend however lol you cause me so MUCH DRAMA because of your cockiness but at the end of the day what are friends for if we don't have confidence I love you and always will and one day "ANTONIO" will give his all to somebody without Boss and the rest in the way. oh yeah can i get a portion size pork chop :-)

Dwight Levy - God knows i love you even when i cant stand you the most there's no way to thank you for everything you do For always being nice to me and staying by my side, for helping fix my problems and never leaving me behind For accepting my thoughts and feelings, though you do not understand, for never giving up on me and being my best friend For making me laugh and letting me cry and saying you'd miss me if I were to die Everything you mean to me you could never know In all the ways you've changed my life I could never show The way you take care of me, you're my shining star and though it's so incredible that's just the way you are Before I get too mushy there's one thing you should know As long as we are living, no matter when or where, if you ever need me just call and I'll be there I'll climb a thousand mountains and swim a thousand seas anything to be there because you've been there for me

TO BE CONT........

24 days left

It's 24 days left and its almost over. So much have happen within these days that was very unexpected!!!

Some of it has been good some was bad and some was even brought into the light but before i get into all of that let me first explain what is

"61 Days Retreat".

Some thought it was a weight loss things thats funny!!!!!

you see within these 61 days i made it my business to put myself in a hole just to find out who' who because when im on top i notice im blind to things i love.

THE LOVE RELATIONSHIP

the love was was allowing you to come into my temple and trusting that you will be clandestine as i am with myself im still not sure why my temple allows you to enter especially when im the type to easily forget you.

The relationship was two people in contact with each other to two people that couldnt get enough of each other but suddenly it was oblivious to the relationship that is developing when suddenly you are hit with the realzation that you have fallen in love and have to backdown because the other party is not willing " its complex"

SILENCE

We got that waiting in the clinic silence. That shhh dont tell nobody what we did silence and Im so tired of being your hamper that Im about to dump out those week old stained ketchup secrets and do laundry in that silence you like keeping. But my vagina is not your walk in closet. You wanna stuff your doubts through me, wanna place to hang up you insecurities, want me to keep check of you hami downs and prada, waiting for every occassion to put me back behind closed doors and lock me in the darkness. Nobody knows you hold my hand and nobody knows I call you baby and nobody know you write annonymous poems about me the type you cant post on Facebook. Because regardless of what you may think, Im worth more than you deserve. I will never be that girl, the girl thats only allowed to make you smile when she´s making you orgasm, that girl whose day job is daydreaming waiting for her night job. That girl who´s so in love she´ll turn her body over for your superficial touch. You hide me behind lock doors and bedsheets because if you dare reached out then everybody would still know that it was still about me. So that in your heart and in your mind your still wrapped up in me. My teardrops you own them, my hearts says you got them tied around your pencils and figures. Yea, you may say it´s over and you may never tell me that you love me but you dont have to cause your silence speaks volume. You wanna hold me in your arms rock me to sleep then act like you dont know me. As if the moments we spent together are some kind of down payment. As if my bedroom were lay away and thats all you ever do is layaway roll up beside me but in the morning pull up the hoodie and run the other way. Im like that bastard child the reason Daddy never stucka round in the first place but for me rejection doesn´t come every other weekend.. It comes when you lower your head and pass by without speaking and I remember there was a time you could barely take your eyes off me. I just dont understand why its not okay for you to love me. I guess you just want me to be that girl. . the girl everbody wants to sleep with but nobody wants to be with. That girl whose only good enouch for finding a suitable replacement. And not trying to make up for the mistake but you try to convince yourself that she means everything and you want nothing to do with me but come on baby she looks just like me. Read the signs or at least the facial features cause I was your first, your only, the prototype and she´s just a duplicate and you can never make copies without first consulting the blueprint! You know what they say the sequel is never better than the original. And she tries to write you stories but their only half as good, so half squinting you only hold her half as tight as you should. Cause your other half is tangled between my bedsheets, and your other half is complete within my mind, soul, and body, and your other half is french tonguing me Monday through Firday. Im not fighting for joint custody. Im fighting for RESPECT cause I will never be content with being your back door hoe. Your something on the side, your something to do on those lonely weekends, your closet freak. You will never produce me to be a skank and a whore that will love you. Id rather spend everynight crying alone on my bedroom floor than to ever be "that girl" !

BE A LADY IN THE STREETS AND A FREAK IN THE SHEETS !!!!!

This is actually a perfectly sound requirement, except for the fact that most men panic and run for the hills when they actually acquire it. There is alway that one friend that is unfaithful to his woman for some variation of the following reason, “I can’t let her do [insert random sexual act here] to me. That’s what the side chick is for!” You’re our friend, so we nod and say “I know, right?” but in reality we think you’re an idiot, because you are an idiot. Meanwhile your lady is either unsatisfied or stepping out of the relationship to do all the things you think you can’t do to her with some other guy who is treating your main woman like a side woman. Don’t be that guy, bro.

Hottest BLack Celebrity Men

10 Hottest BLack celebrity Men 

Ladies here is something to let your mouth's drip water!!! In the words of Mariah these guys are "delicious" and i say that with no apology.Listed below will be the names of guys that are believe 10 of the most gorgeous black men in Hollywood,you may choose to agree or disagree nonetheless this is only  mere self implied views none of which as been placed under any scope of delegation; but i do promise to list guys who are incontestably HOT!!!! so kick back,relax and enjoy;Cause this list is definitely awesome.

Please note there isn't any set order to the names i will leave that to you.

Sexy Tremaine "Trey Songz" Neverson strutting is deliciousness

Hey ladies do you remember this guy???? oh yes, he is Ginufine!!!!! 

Thank you Mr. Tyler Perry for introducing to us..... Mr. Christian Keyes

sigh,Usher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could i leave you out!!!!! (whistles)

Hellooooooo Shemar Moore!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are you seeing what i think im seeing????? Check out that bulge!!!

Ding Ding Dingggggggggggg, entering on the right hand corner, the sexy LL Cool J!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you remember this guy???? does Soul Food ring a bell??? well this is Mr. Boris Kodjoe

Darren Dewitt!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)Look at his bufffff chest

Willy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oldies but goodies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

You know him as Derwin Davis but i'm introducing him as Pooch Hall!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hella Hella sexy!!!!!! :)

sigh, i know i said 10 but i just could not resist!!!!!!!!!!!! mmmmmmmmmm,Brian White!!!!!!!!!! (Stomp the yard)

Fresh Start 123....

Teach me to be an instrument of peace

 





Its a new Year and it been a while  i havent blog or let me say express my feelings in a mintue so now i shall start again i have so much to chat about and so much i have learned i actually miss written but hey in life sometimes we have to stop some things in order for us to put things back in order so let me be the first to say....

 

WELCOME BACK KIX305