MOTIVATION

My motivation is to keep me happy but when you think of others you fall back sometimes.

i know i put my trust into things which confuse the situation but then again I'm trying to open the DOOR

i told myself to let go of the past and be free to whats in front of me

But what's in front of me question me and i question it

i don't know why i feel the way i feel and its not the emotion that's in control of me i just don't want the years to past by and they all in vain

"it " always have me thinking whats next

but at the end of the day "

it" makes me content

I'm proud of it

i love it

and when it finds its way ill still be by its side

somebody ask me so i said....

When a man is being unfaithful, he might not think of the consequences that will follow or how his partner may feel – because he is caught in the heat of the moment. Yes, it is the level of respect and the commitment levels that you have and that your partner has that will determine whether or not your relationship will work. Through respect, open communication and caring, you will be able to understand your man better and the chances of you relationship working out will be stronger

Most women have the tendency to lament and crib about their problems, just because they want these problems to be acknowledged, while men on the other hand, tend to crib about problems because they are looking for solutions to these problems. Obviously, there are going to be many differences between a man and a woman’s point of view and how they will react when put under pressure.

Don’t be upset when you don’t get the exact same response that you would desire or expect. Men are tough creatures to figure out. So, the next time you are upset with your man, try to think about the issue in the way that he probably would. Simply acknowledge the fact that men do think in different ways from us would definitely lift a heavy burden off your shoulders. So, the next time he acts in a weird manner, don’t sweat. This does not mean that he doesn’t care about you. He probably just thinks differently than the way that you do

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i never said it like I'm about to say it now but its time i free myself its so much anger and bitterness build in me that i have to release it or ill kill myself on it alone maybe someone understand i cry out for help but it seems no one hears me i cry at night but there no one to wipe the tears i know they say when your at that point pray to GOD but how could that be when i blame him for being rape at the age of 12 by my mother best friend son i was so afraid there was nothing i could do i wanted to say something so bad but i didn't i was afraid every time we went north i hated to go i never forgot that night i cried i was only a little girl every time i look into his eyes knowing what he did to me i never wanted my mom and her friend to leave so i can kill him and let him suffer i wanted to let him feel what i felt and feel at night when we went north i stayed up at night everyday i got up with a knife wising and hoping he will touch me again so i can cut every piece of flesh and laugh and ask him how do It feel but he never touch me again i believe he seen the anger in my eyes and still till this day i still feel the same thing for him nobody knows what goes on behind my smile

TO BE CONT.....

TRUST

Today a few things got me thinking i don't know why and how it came about but it did but i trust it i may be wrong and foolish to even think that this is it but its a chance i willing to take ill give my all if its willing to serve me back don't want it to be selfish don't want it to be mean just want it to be there for me accidentally or on purpose it doesn't really matter as long the wall come down so i can cross over it and build back up once I'm across so no other can step over i trust it enough to rely on it but just waiting to see if it will put the 3 that will make the 2 dividing the trust it become 1

bottom of the 7th

With 6 R.B.I bases is loaded bottom of the 7Th inning and the team is counting on you. SO they can become winnings all you can think about is don't strike out with all eyes on you here comes the pitch it barely made it cross the plate now you think your okay think again cause you still need 2ND and 3rd base to make it home safe you back out of the box to catch eye contact with the pitcher but they pay you no attention with an attitude lets get this game over with i have to ACTH a race step back in the box and they just pitch STRIKE!!!!!!!game over now everyone mad at you only if you would of stayed in the box and kept your position

FINALLY - Someone is bitchy enough to say it like it REALLY is!

(GO AHEAD, CALL ME A BITCH, I DON'T CARE!!!!)

When I stand up for Myself and my beliefs, They call me a Bitch. When I stand up for Those I love, They call me a Bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts Or do things my own way, they call me a Bitch. Being a bitch Means I won't Compromise what's In my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to Tolerate injustice and Speak against it, I am Defined as a Bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for Myself instead of being everyone's maid,

Or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I 'should' be.I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!So try to stomp on me,just try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch ,so be it.


"unknow"

Just To Make It clear

It started to get a hold of me but i had to pull back and think and realize this is KIX were talking about I'm too cute with many potentials and a go getter that always complete her task So quite often, the easiest way to get rid of a minus is to change it into a plus. sometimes you will find that characteristics you try hard to eliminate eventually come back, anyways. But if you do the right thing, they will come back in the right ways. And sometimes those very tendencies that you dislike the most can show up in the right way at the right time to save your life, somehow........

Whats next

I cant help the pain that i face i never felt so betrayed at times it may seem like I'm happy inside as i smile but it hurt every day even when i laugh out loud it don't matter what way i look what way i turn when night fall and i lay the tears start to fall my mom say ke its going to be alright but she don't understand how deeply i feel inside. bro say its not worth it but he so heartless that he could never be wrong "Friend" makes me smile but still it hurt when i walk away or say goodnight I'm not saying that i just accept what happen but if it meant anything why wait till it come to this when it could of been finish when you wanted to begin i never thought i would say this or admit it but my heart was really in i need to close the chapter well story to this but were do i begin cause i cant open another book until this was is complete to its end

change

Hey y'all i thought really long this past week and i have came to the end of the road to just say i need to make the change its not a bad change but i know its better for me even tho i might not understand completely why I'm doing this but i feel good about it so too the close ones near me don't feel outta place with things i say or do just be there and remember I'm still GROWING UP!!!

LOVE

sometimes we omitted ourself from others and may not understand why but when we find ourself love is unstopable i should be mad at you but im not instead i grew to understand i love you like my own blood no matter how harsh and critcal your words can be we say one thing at night and wake up the next day like we never had a fight (LMAO) girl i love your crazy ass and thank GOD everyday for having a sis like you

GET IN WERE YOU FIT IN

I ran into an old friend of mines and we talk about things back in our days it amaze me how some people remain the same and never want to change living the fast life was fun and wealthy but everything come to an end when its not all right I'm glad my mind set was different from others and i decide to go another route taking control of life is funny one person once told me

" Boredom is simply the lack of imagination.”

“I’ve never been poor, only broke. Being poor is a frame of mind. Being broke is a temporary situation.”

which now i know is the truth i will never be poor because I'm am rich in my heart!!!!

INTRO

I have close the books of my life for alot of reasons but now at this point of TIME its time to open and read the chapters i give it to you so take it for what it is WORTH

Do not be afaid because holding back only HURTS you .....

(someone asked)

What do you do when you put your all in to a person and they leave you anyway?

If you give your all and they leave it’s probably because the other person wasn’t giving there all… After a while no matter what you do if a person just isn’t in love no matter what you give or say the other person will still attempt to fill a void with someone new. If the person actually leaves take it as a token of sympathy because they are actually letting you know at that time instead of stringing you along which can only hurt more. In a relationship there is always one person that loves or cares about the other more…. AVOID being the one that loves the other more it saves heartache in the end…. SAD but TRUE!!!!

IT'S SIMPLE

Although many simpletons would love to see the KEKE empire fall...YET STILL I RISE. Weebles, Wobles, but they don't but they don't fall down...lol