Saturday, October 24, 2015

Are you my wife


Being a wife and husband is being the unique self that you both are and were before you met. It’s not a role that one starts to play as soon as they are married and then maybe with children.

 But it is a quality both already has, using their unique character and personality to nurture each other and their children. Meaning their character and personality is being strengthened in the journey.

 People think you have to act like another person when being a wife, mother, husband, and father. But the secret is in the people being themselves and working together to get great results. Strengthening each others person(ality).

 At the end of the day, we are sowing a seed of ourselves within each other and our children and the fruit will tell if we were truly being ourselves as a wife /mother/husband/father or acting as someone else we have seen.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

WOMAN TO WOMAN

Im actually glad that you were brave and bold enough to call my house, so that we can discuss this woman to woman, and try to work some of these things out, so we can compare notes on some dates and times trying to figure out some of his tired ass lies.
Im actually glad to be hearing from the lips that left the lipstick on my mans collar, even though he told me he was working late, to try and earn a couple of extra dollars. I loved and trusted him so his bullshit I would swallow even though my intuition would never let me sleep.
so i guess the gaps in our relationship is where you thought you would fit in ? just a insecure woman chasing after a man who got a woman. but yo pussy is not deep enough for a man to fall in love with, and this we already know cause your skirt is so short that it already shows your best assets so there’s no point in tryna figure out why you askin after all. He is not fucking you for your mind! =)
and you still young at heart so you think this is real cute, telling your friends that he is cheating on me but he really wants you, but the reality is that we are nothing alike.
When he cant deal with me, he goes to you to get me off his mind but it never works see..
He gets really still as he lays inbetween the sheets that he is tuning you out coz hes picturing me because you put up with that shit I just wont deal with coz im strong in who I am… and he loves that about it, its just that sometimes he just cant stand the reality that he doesn’t deserve a woman like me.
when he feels that way, well that’s when he comes crawling to your dirty sheets, and just like a child you thought you would call me to share?
Calling me to disclose to me the colour of my mans underwear. You tell me like I don’t already know HELL I BOUGHT THEM!!! try to tell me bout how my man fucks, bitch. I taught him!"
So why don’t you do me a favour, when he comes over tonight, and he’s coming and you coming and you both cumin, at last just simply lean back his head and look him deep in his eyes…
YOU WILL SEE ME WAVING BACK AT YOU…

Saturday, September 28, 2013

SECRET

Sometime i sit and think how it all will come to a end as i sit and wonder much thoughts come out so let me write my list of goodbyes just in case i will never see you again

+Markisha Guillot - A close friend when i first came around never cant forget those days in Oak Grove and Barbra almost beat me in the principle office a friend that has been there from the start travel too Trinidad just to get a head start but at the end no matter how far away or years we separate your always a child hood friend i could never replace or get again


Georgette Hyman- A ride or die chick told me so many secrets and yet i still could never repeat again i tried so hard too keep you focus but you never did want to make a change lost you in this world cause you wanted to follow the fame if i never said it sorry for the neglect i gave you but i couldn't hold back while you sit in shame.

Sharita Lorrick- Your my boo no matter what from me slamming you you punching me buying trucks and cars taking trip to islands getting stuck in the sea (lol) painting pools taking risk for one another kicking people out the house crying over each other shoulder meeting flying from state to state getting caught up in NEW YORK during the black out crazy fun showing how to use a tampon (lmao) cussing drew at the end of the day i will forever love you your my sis friend shelter and yeah if i was gay "You ll be my number one draft pick"

+Tonya Fulton-Thomas When i meet you i was a Outkast just so happens to be with some chicks that where some numbers. Apparently we became attach too each other since that day you where a bit tipsy i have never left your side like the family will say i may be around in March and you wont see me at all till November granted i have a God-child from you that is smart but a attitude like her mother even tho you never listen when i tell you to do something and you turn back around and say "i should have just listen" in heart your rich you mean well and for that you ll always have a spot to sit on my red couch


Jacques Charles-Pierre (jack)- I gave you 5 years of my life to find out in the middle of that 4th year it was all a waste of time. You wasn't man enough to tell me. but that's the circle of life i forgave you a long time ago just thought you should know to be honesty you taught me allot we had more fun in our history

+Beverly Chin  "Treat her like a baby sister protect her like your own" Love you more than i think i should i would carry you if i really could I only want whats best for you. You have a great heart but damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn you have a FUCK UP! attitude but i guess its just the misconception you bring i would do anything for you but sometimes i wish you see things differently not that its an attack but just knowing whats in front of you showing love from me is hard but if you ask sharita i took you under my wing like you where my own i may not agree with some things you do and even tho it hurt me i still take up for and put you on a pedal stool so no matter what rather good or bad ill always Love You!.


Jackie Perez- When i needed it the most God put you in that place never had to share one sexual moment too know the "opputunist" stood in the room you paid a good deed you told me i shouldnt have and it save me from going straight to hell i paid you off like a keeper would but somehow things got misunderstood i took a plea just to cut a contract i must say it was all worth it. and i want to say thank you for that

+Dana Roberts  When i first came too you it was strictly business no strings attached after 6 years our friendship grew far from that one connect. made money together had shared tears together one person that always been straight foward and not ashamed to hold anything back i remember when you left your job i think i was more proud of you that day i knew then my friend will elavate higher and wont look back im just proud you have the balls to do what some always imagine


+Antonio DJBOSS
From Antonio to tonio to tony to ughhhhh BOSS our first greeting was just plain funny we ended up having more to talk about you became my brother my friend my ride out partner a special bond that no one could ever amend however lol you cause me so MUCH DRAMA because of your cockiness but at the end of the day what are friends for if we don't have confidence I love you and always will and one day "ANTONIO" will give his all to somebody without Boss and the rest in the way. oh yeah can i get a portion size pork chop :-)

Dwight Levy - God knows i love you even when i cant stand you the most there's no way to thank you for everything you do For always being nice to me and staying by my side, for helping fix my problems and never leaving me behind For accepting my thoughts and feelings, though you do not understand, for never giving up on me and being my best friend For making me laugh and letting me cry and saying you'd miss me if I were to die Everything you mean to me you could never know In all the ways you've changed my life I could never show The way you take care of me, you're my shining star and though it's so incredible that's just the way you are Before I get too mushy there's one thing you should know As long as we are living, no matter when or where, if you ever need me just call and I'll be there I'll climb a thousand mountains and swim a thousand seas anything to be there because you've been there for me

TO BE CONT........

Thursday, August 15, 2013

24 days left




It's 24 days left and its almost over. So much have happen within these days that was very unexpected!!!




Some of it has been good some was bad and some was even brought into the light but before i get into all of that let me first explain what is




"61 Days Retreat".




Some thought it was a weight loss things thats funny!!!!!




you see within these 61 days i made it my business to put myself in a hole just to find out who' who because when im on top i notice im blind to things i love.



THE LOVE RELATIONSHIP


the love was was allowing you to come into my temple and trusting that you will be clandestine as i am with myself im still not sure why my temple allows you to enter especially when im the type to easily forget you.








The relationship was two people in contact with each other to two people that couldnt get enough of each other but suddenly it was oblivious to the relationship that is developing when suddenly you are hit with the realzation that you have fallen in love and have to backdown because the other party is not willing " its complex"




Monday, August 12, 2013

SILENCE

We got that waiting in the clinic silence. That shhh dont tell nobody what we did silence and Im so tired of being your hamper that Im about to dump out those week old stained ketchup secrets and do laundry in that silence you like keeping. But my vagina is not your walk in closet. You wanna stuff your doubts through me, wanna place to hang up you insecurities, want me to keep check of you hami downs and prada, waiting for every occassion to put me back behind closed doors and lock me in the darkness. Nobody knows you hold my hand and nobody knows I call you baby and nobody know you write annonymous poems about me the type you cant post on Facebook. Because regardless of what you may think, Im worth more than you deserve. I will never be that girl, the girl thats only allowed to make you smile when she´s making you orgasm, that girl whose day job is daydreaming waiting for her night job. That girl who´s so in love she´ll turn her body over for your superficial touch. You hide me behind lock doors and bedsheets because if you dare reached out then everybody would still know that it was still about me. So that in your heart and in your mind your still wrapped up in me. My teardrops you own them, my hearts says you got them tied around your pencils and figures. Yea, you may say it´s over and you may never tell me that you love me but you dont have to cause your silence speaks volume. You wanna hold me in your arms rock me to sleep then act like you dont know me. As if the moments we spent together are some kind of down payment. As if my bedroom were lay away and thats all you ever do is layaway roll up beside me but in the morning pull up the hoodie and run the other way. Im like that bastard child the reason Daddy never stucka round in the first place but for me rejection doesn´t come every other weekend.. It comes when you lower your head and pass by without speaking and I remember there was a time you could barely take your eyes off me. I just dont understand why its not okay for you to love me. I guess you just want me to be that girl. . the girl everbody wants to sleep with but nobody wants to be with. That girl whose only good enouch for finding a suitable replacement. And not trying to make up for the mistake but you try to convince yourself that she means everything and you want nothing to do with me but come on baby she looks just like me. Read the signs or at least the facial features cause I was your first, your only, the prototype and she´s just a duplicate and you can never make copies without first consulting the blueprint! You know what they say the sequel is never better than the original. And she tries to write you stories but their only half as good, so half squinting you only hold her half as tight as you should. Cause your other half is tangled between my bedsheets, and your other half is complete within my mind, soul, and body, and your other half is french tonguing me Monday through Firday. Im not fighting for joint custody. Im fighting for RESPECT cause I will never be content with being your back door hoe. Your something on the side, your something to do on those lonely weekends, your closet freak. You will never produce me to be a skank and a whore that will love you. Id rather spend everynight crying alone on my bedroom floor than to ever be "that girl" !

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

BE A LADY IN THE STREETS AND A FREAK IN THE SHEETS !!!!!

This is actually a perfectly sound requirement, except for the fact that most men panic and run for the hills when they actually acquire it. There is alway that one friend that is unfaithful to his woman for some variation of the following reason, “I can’t let her do [insert random sexual act here] to me. That’s what the side chick is for!” You’re our friend, so we nod and say “I know, right?” but in reality we think you’re an idiot, because you are an idiot. Meanwhile your lady is either unsatisfied or stepping out of the relationship to do all the things you think you can’t do to her with some other guy who is treating your main woman like a side woman. Don’t be that guy, bro.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Hottest BLack Celebrity Men

10 Hottest BLack celebrity Men 

Ladies here is something to let your mouth's drip water!!! In the words of Mariah these guys are "delicious" and i say that with no apology.Listed below will be the names of guys that are believe 10 of the most gorgeous black men in Hollywood,you may choose to agree or disagree nonetheless this is only  mere self implied views none of which as been placed under any scope of delegation; but i do promise to list guys who are incontestably HOT!!!! so kick back,relax and enjoy;Cause this list is definitely awesome.
Please note there isn't any set order to the names i will leave that to you.
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Sexy Tremaine "Trey Songz" Neverson strutting is deliciousness

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Hey ladies do you remember this guy???? oh yes, he is Ginufine!!!!! 

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Thank you Mr. Tyler Perry for introducing to us..... Mr. Christian Keyes

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sigh,Usher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could i leave you out!!!!! (whistles)

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Hellooooooo Shemar Moore!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are you seeing what i think im seeing????? Check out that bulge!!!

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Ding Ding Dingggggggggggg, entering on the right hand corner, the sexy LL Cool J!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Do you remember this guy???? does Soul Food ring a bell??? well this is Mr. Boris Kodjoe

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Darren Dewitt!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)Look at his bufffff chest

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Willy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oldies but goodies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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You know him as Derwin Davis but i'm introducing him as Pooch Hall!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hella Hella sexy!!!!!! :)

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sigh, i know i said 10 but i just could not resist!!!!!!!!!!!! mmmmmmmmmm,Brian White!!!!!!!!!! (Stomp the yard)

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Fresh Start 123....

Teach me to be an instrument of peace
 


Its a new Year and it been a while  i havent blog or let me say express my feelings in a mintue so now i shall start again i have so much to chat about and so much i have learned i actually miss written but hey in life sometimes we have to stop some things in order for us to put things back in order so let me be the first to say....
 
WELCOME BACK KIX305 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

CRAZY

you might think i'm crazy but i'm serious i think it's best that you know now that when i'm with you boy i get this feeling and i don't wanna slow down it's so unusual, the doctor can't prescribe im lovin oh is you the beautiful, just strip behind the wheel, the way you loose control, for you you make me ride and aggression through your love, you got me high, oh baby another dui, your touch is like a drug you got me high intoxicated

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

EYES

We sometimes live in a world of self-destruction, but it’s putting ourselves in another place that we learn how to maintain our sanity. At times we forget who we are and fall into the trap of society but at the right moment we learn how to rebirth ourselves again. Even, at that moment you have to question why do we rebirth vs. moving forward? Personally I don’t want to have to continue to rebirth especially if the same cycle remains why this world we live in asks for one to stand up and make a change. I say maybe because I choose to be different, maybe because I don’t want to be like the others, or just maybe I am the cycle breaker. The one that makes it happens. the one that you should be proud of but funny I look around and still I don’t hear my name called all I hear is the negative feedback that doesn’t add up or even make any scents but I advise smile even in the mist of your cries hold your head up and don’t bow down . Be strong with whatever you believe in but just be smart and open your eyes

Friday, January 20, 2012

SO HOLLYWOOD

We separate when its needed but we always seem to come back together i guess thats what "friends" are for i remember a time his girl was soooooooooooo mad that it wasnt even funny just because i had a issue and he wouldnt leave my side. so many people thought we had relations it never even got that far but it did brush off as if we did. i might say but threw it all we always did allowed people to think what they wanted between the both of us i love my bestfriend and thats what we are FRIENDS FOREVER funny recently i needed him to chat about some things and this HOLLYWOOD Papito Chulo been cake up but i couldnt do nothing but respect it but we finally did get that talk in and it damn near cost me a ticket too ugh!!!! but hey what are friends are for i guess when this battle of the unknow chevy 1971 reveal (insider)  IT ON!!!!!!!! LOL





Thursday, January 19, 2012

MIND THOUGHT

Never thought we was apart just wanted different things like sunday I rode. It didn't even feel the same I went home early its nothing like knowing that person you love is next too you or in the front of you looking back to make sure your still there. I was looking at our bike pictures and the shit kinda touched me, I be wondering if we were suppose too work things out or let us fade away...I want to ride in a few sunday y dont u call me (he mentioned)
 

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

There is a reason why...........

There is a reason why……

A Lady is defined by so many glorious, respectful and wonderful attributes.  A Lady is defined as:


1. A woman who is refined, polite, and well-spoken: She may be poor and have little education, but she's a real lady.
2. A well-mannered and considerate woman with high standards of proper behavior.
3.  A woman regarded as proper and virtuous.
4. A well-behaved young girl.

5. A woman who is the head of a household.
6. A woman, especially when spoken of or to in a polite way.




I have highlighted these precious attributes, because these definitions sum up the core of me as a woman. as you can see money or education does not validate me as real woman  However, being polite, well-spoken, well-mannered, considerate, high standards, proper behavior, being virtuous, well-behaved, and being head of a household.  These are some of the valuable gems that i bring to the table that has help defined me as “A Woman”!  Let  me be mindful of these strong qualities and characteristics when we are preparing our minds, spirits and bodies Let’s carry ourselves as “Ladies” at all times we are all accountable and responsible for protecting our Lady status!  If your shorts are too short; let’s wear tights under them, if your t-shirt is too revealing; let’s wear something under it to protect visibility, if you have on a scarf or bonnet on your head; let’s comb our hair and let our beauty show; for a woman’s hair is her glory! If you want to say something that is not Ladylike; take a deep breath, walk away; collect yourself then speak. Let your Lady status show

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Did you forget

You say you love me but we don't make love
You say nothings changed yet I pull and you shove
I'm always pleasing you (did you forget)
That I got needs too but I'm so afraid to walk away from you I don't know what you want me to do

Though I love you and I care about you
But you keep hurting me and I keep forgiving you
I Don't wanna lose you
 I Need you in my life But your not giving back,
Why should i be the one to sacrifice

Now I take your cursing
Your lies and even flirting
Smile for the camera when I'm really hurting
Everyday you make me feel it for certain No matter what I do it just ain't working

Say you used to be my sunshine in the midst of the rain and you used to ease my mind when my heart was in Pain
I was the hand and you were my glove
Tell me what did you do with the man that I loved
You used to make me feel that I can fly
Now all I wanna do is lay down and die

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

DUI

What should you say and do if you are confronted by a police officer and suspected of DUI?
No single answer will suffice for all people in all situations. However, in dealing with the police, here are five universally sound things to do, if stopped for DUI:

(1.) If asked (or told) about an alleged traffic violation, do not try to appease the officer by agreeing with him or her that you committed some traffic offense. Don’t get belligerent, but say “Actually, sir (or ma’am), I believe I stayed entirely within my lane” or some other appropriate explanation. Remember, everything you are saying is being recorded, and your DUI attorney may be able to use the favorable things said by you in your favor.


(2.) If asked about alcohol use or drugs, ADMIT NOTHING, or blame it on your bottle of mouthwash. “I just brushed my teeth!” Don’t incriminate yourself by admitting that you consumed “only two glasses of wine with dinner.”


(3.) If asked for your license or any documents, have them ready to show the officer. Stay inside the vehicle, seated, with your hands visible on the steering wheel. If the officer asks you to step out of the vehicle, explain that you prefer to not get out, due to safety concerns. If the officer claims to smell or detect alcohol or drugs, do not admit to having consumed anything, just ask, “Am I under arrest?” The officer will say something like: “I need to give you some field evaluations to make sure you are safe to be on your way home.” This sounds good until he or she “claims” that you failed or did poorly on the field evaluations. Politely say, “Thank you, officer, but unless I have my attorney present, I’d prefer NOT to try to perform agility exercises that I am not familiar with.” Only when he or she ORDERS you to get out, and physically opens your door should you reluctantly leave your car. (remember you are being recorded and probably videoed).


(4.) Once out of the car, do nothing and walk no place other than where he or she insists, or forces you to go. Explain your desire to not get out of the car at the roadside, and your desire to not be asked to walk, balance, count or perform any voluntary roadside evaluations of any type. If offered a hand-held breath analyzer, decline doing it, if you can. If asked, “Why not blow if you haven’t been drinking?” merely tell the officer that you have no confidence in battery- powered devices that could carry bacteria, germs and diseases such as tuberculosis.
(5.) Ask to call your attorney on your cell phone as soon as the officer starts getting “pushy”. Also, state to the officer that you are willing to satisfy his concerns for safety by handing him your keys and taking a cab home, but that you will not submit to testing that you do not trust to be reliable or accurate. If he says,“So you don’t think you are safe to drive?” or something similar, be sure to say, “Absolutely not true. I am merely trying to satisfy you that I am cooperative in every way, even if I believe your concerns are not reasonable.”


Remember to always be polite. If taking the cab results in your car being towed, that is a small price to pay to avoid being arrested and possibly convicted of DUI. Hire an Experienced Florida Drunk Driving Attorney. For many DUI suspects, the initial confrontation with the officer will lead to an arrest. Be aware that EVERY CASE is different and do your best to follow the above guidelines.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Daughters2Mothers, INC

THIS IS A PROGRAM THATS JUST MAY BE THE NEW UPCOMING FOR ALL YOUTH THAT MAY HAVE MADE MISTAKE AND THINK EVERYONE HAS TURN ON THEM........


Daughters2Mothers, Inc. takes a co-parenting approach to accomplish its mission and goals by providing free mentor ship to low income teen-age parents between the ages of 13-21. It's program is a holistic, continuous, 2 pronged program designed to provide teen-age parents the opportunities to enhance the quality of their lives.

Daughters2Mothers
PO Box 681192
Miami, Fl 33168 phone: (305) 7414755

This program is not just about youth and teenage pregnancy it go pass that its more of a guide to young beautiful teenager of becoming successful woman you see allot of people believe that success is money and power to be very honesty its not its more of being content and comfortable with thyself the key word is SELF once you have discover the true meaning of self within then there is no limit to how far you can go and no one can take that away from you



ugh!

Nothing pisses me off more than a woman who cuts herself short just to please a man.
NEWS FLASH!!!!!!!:
If he can't accept ALL of YOU, He's not worth it, because at the end of the day we are ALL damaged goods with some kind of baggage.
its just sad too see someone have that much advantage over a woman and think nothing of it the funny thing is that woman hold the key they just have to really know how to turn the lock those woman want somebody to feel guilty for what they have going on but in reality its all about your deep down insecurity
but when that MAN say jump!!!! your alter EGO! run to the next exit
UGH!!!! (ugly face)
You let that fraction of a man run you cause your scared to start over !!!!

SUCK IT UP!!! AND DEAL WITH IT AND TAKE BACK CONTROL


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

BASKETBALL WIVES


FINALLY!
Well, Royce was not one of my favorites but I think the girl is alright. At LEAST she ADMITS when she is wrong and thinks for herself.
Now Evelyn....is a WHORE! I don't usually side with an out of control angry alchoholic but Tammi was right to bust that bytch in the face and I hope there is a reunion show and she finishes the job. For Evelyn to sit there and say she didn't know is a lie. That bytch will investigate the pockets of any man she sleeps with....hence why she'll even sleep with them That bytch is a calculating C*NT!
I RESPECT Shaunie for telling Tami immediately after finding out cuz that shyt was foul. I'm starting to think that the girl may have been eye grilling and snickering behind Tami's back the whole time in Spain.
May a thousand and one flea invest Evelyn's lingerie! She's the girl that eveyone is gonna be engaged to and at the end of the day after she's gurgled enuff nutz down her throat a muhphucker looks at her and says...NAH! She ain't wifey material!

Monday, March 7, 2011

INSANE ADVENTURE

While sitting at home eating I saw the for Shaun T's Insanity. It looked like a really hard but awesome workout, so I decided to order it and see how I would do. I noticed that mosst of the people in the informercial were basically already semi-fit, so I want to see how the program works for someone thats completly opposite.I just clocked in my weight at 190lbs this morning and at 5'2 1/2 WOW!!! that's really high for me. I'm looking to lose about 30-40lbs. So I'm going to see what this program can d0.
Basically the program consists of about 10-13 dvds (depending on what you order) and a nutrition plan. The program is supposed to be for 60 days. That's do-able I think. Each dvd has a different workout for a different day 6x per week. The first month the videos are about 39 minutes or so. Month 2 they go up to about an hour or so. Each workout is supposed to be super intense and I heard that most people (even those that are thin and fit) can't even get through it. So we'll see how I do.
The hardest part for me in sticking out the 60 day plan will be the nutrition. The program comes with a nutrition manual that says you're supposed to eat 5 300 calorie meals per day (you can increase it based on your caloric needs). I LOVE pasta food! So that's hard to give up. Plus my weight doesn't respond well to changes in my life. Everytime something changes my weight always fluctuates. But hopefully have a stricter diet plan will stop that from happening next semester when school begins again.
I'm going to try to post a couple of times per week for updates. so today is day 1 of my 60 day INSANE adventure.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Omg! its my third day in this i feel like s%#t mentally but hey thats part of the change well 2 days in it 19 days left not so bad i guess anywho this weekend will be a busy weekend for me hair day with mom two dinner party long hours at work time with the kids and whole unexpected other things that just might come up
OTHER NEWS
NICKI COVERS MARCH BLACKBOOK !!!!!!



Her photos are awesome i just still wonder what will she do when she get older everyone have there time of fame i guess there are no limits to how you get there just get there

BY THE WAY I STILL SAY "LIL KIM" CREATED YOU CHECK THE FOOTAGE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1u4k7alH2Q&feature=player_detailpage



























Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Change the Dynamics

For whatever reason im feeling inclined to share my thoughts....... it makes me want to cut myself when people making permanet decisions based on temporary conditions .....but when do we change the dynamics of the game!!!!

How well do you play in the situations when you have advantage vs when position is balanced vs when you are worse? One way to improve your game is by finding an answer to the question and working on addressing the situation were you perform the worst.

The Story: What side was happy with the end game John Doe felt that he had reach a winning postion; Jane doe felt that she was able to transpose a passive position into a tactical endgame were she could out-play her mate.
Interestingly both out played each other to a certain degree. Indeed after all the bitter John doe would have achieved a winning position. his controlness was soild and his support of man hood made it easy for him to control the game. But little did he know Jane doe was in the lead of the game the entire time. Do to the reality she actually hold the cards but Jane had to realize that playing her postion the right way ,was the only way. And thats: to sacrfice showing her love cause you should never make a permanent decisions from temporary situation and realize that John will always Love her (free spirt)

i wanted to use this example to show how the flow of the game can be change by a small material sacrifice. It not only has a effect on the position, but also psychologiacal effect on both people. However a proper assessment is required before you excute your sacrifice. Otherwise, a solid, but passive position could collapse.
Still, even if that was to happen, all is not lost. When the factors of emotion are aganist your, psychological factors could possibly rescue you just like John in the end








































Wednesday, January 5, 2011

OFFICE CRUSHES

There could be a woman or a man at your job that you find very attractive. You enjoy working with them, joking with them, and even flirting with them. It seems like they like you, but nothing has happened yet. You go out to clubs, tried online dating, and have been set up by your friends but nothing has gotten your attention like the man or woman from work has.
You wonder if they think about you after work or on weekends like you think of them. You wonder if they are dating anyone and if they wonder if you are dating anyone. You are curious and want to know if they are as excited to come to work and see you just like you are to see them. You go to work every day and think to yourself “Today just might be the day they ask me out”, but it hasn’t quite happened yet. You are starting to think it never will. You may be getting frustrated because they HAVENT asked you out and you wonder what the hell are they waiting for?
Are they just flirting with you but don’t plan on doing anything about it? Can’t they tell that you would say yes if they did ask you out? What more do you have to do to get them to take the next step because you have run out ideas?!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........

I find this too funny cause im in the office seeing this go down as i write and they seem as if they dont understnd why

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

PENITTENCE FOR.......

Is it something I did, or is it something I said.
Is it something you heard, is it something that I'm missing.
Tell me what's going on, where did we go wrong.
Tell me what's up, don't give up; can you just tell me whats wrong

I can tell you how it feels to be lonely now
I'm so fed up with all your lies and you deceiving me.
You act like you don't even remember how we used to be
Like we never existed, like you don't even miss it
What did I do to make you treat me this way

You used to buy me things to see the smile on my face
But lately you've only done things to make my smile erase
Always fussing & fighting
You don't care when I'm crying
And I don't know why we took this turn for the worse.
Let me know something, cause I don't understand
I love you and I'm willing to fix this any way I can
But you gotta tell me what's going on
Why do you treat me this way, I wanna know where we went wrong

Something' ain't right, there's no use in denying
I just don't know why we always fussing & fighting
Baby what is wrong, it feels as though I'm dying inside
Without you by my side, baby I'm crying



"Sometime we sit and think long about the could not realizing how much we should work on the should've"

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

hmmmmm......

something as simple as me hearing your name
puts me in a place that I can't even explain
I really didn't know back then but
right now I'm totally sure
I know I'm your friend but I wanna be much more
I get butterflies when I see you coming
oh boy you got me running
this feeling in my stomach tells me I should be your woman
cause you're the only one who makes my fairy tale come true
how can someone make me so sad but
still I only want them to stay
I wanna say I love you so bad
I wish that you'll understand
that I wanna be more than just your friend
I wish you loved me the same way
I see, I see you talking to them girls on the phone
I wish that I can tell them all to leave you alone
really didn't know back then but right now I'm totally sure
that I wanna be much more
I never really liked your girlfriends
never really gave them a chance
cause I realized that i was your woman

Friday, September 3, 2010

I have no more fight left in me

Friday, August 20, 2010

jealousy 1

WOW!!!!! i think it finally hit lol no its not funny never had a jealousy issue but i think i walk into it today OMG!! its the most strange thing when you feel it yourself wow maybe because i know jealousy is insercurity smh but it only came from a smile why do i have this feeling this cant be happening its even turning into a strange anger ohhhhh nooooooo i cant let this take me its taking my entire vibe away but for what i dont know maybe its that smile Damn! i said it again "smile" i need a break ill be back in a few......

Thursday, August 12, 2010

insane


How happy i am when i interrogate you! how happy when you answer me. my whole being is moved with pleasure. my soul is filled. my feet no longer stumble i thrill with delight. your wisdom and goodness are beyond all measure. they are excellence itself under your influence i am placing new values on life. i see light in the darkness; the firefly in the garden reveals itself in newer beauty. i discover added luster in the pearl; a greater radiance in the morning star and a softer harmony in the moonlight. blessed be the god that brought me here; blessed be he who permitted your majestic mind to be revealed to me; blessed be the one who brought me into your house to hear your voice. for im not crazy nor a emotional wreck just a breed of misunderstanding but for that i will always smile Even if it looks like a frown

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

2 miles

I started on this track full of energy ready to go not thinking i didnt have a bottle of water the first lap was easy it was like gone with the wind it had my heart beat up to paste and i was ready to go all in
The second lap it was cool no issues i still ran fast into it while my friend said girllll you better slow down before you dont have energy for that last lap but i was running so fast that i couldnt hear anything they were saying
Third lap i paste myself so i can regain my energy for the fourth lap but i messed up a little but i was still good
Fourth lap first mile i was still on my paste but by now my friends were jogging with me but they told me im not going to come cross the finished line first i laugh and kept running
Five laps in and i havent gave up it was bets that i wouldn't be able to do a mile but that was funny cause im a mile in and im still not tired or giving up
Sixth lane sixth lap RUN KIX! RUN! i ran but my body started to slow down my mind push me to keep it moving bu my body just wouldt let it go so i jog.
Seventh lap! i had too walk my heart beat was beating too fast i was tired i had sweat running down my back and it was hot it was like i had giving up i wasnt going to make it to 2 miles as i walk i cried cause i didnt want to disappoint myself (SMH) i cant fail myself
i made to the eight lap this will make 2 miles but dang ! i cant believe this my friends ahead of me and im alone on this field im not going to give up cause i have to finished i took a deep breath and i took off i ran and i ran i made it curve to curve but the straight way should have been a easy breeze i said to myself just a little more feet and im done im halfway there and then out the blue i trip i role over a couple of times i guess i can say it was _____ but then again everything happen for a reason but i still finished that lap and took my keys and went home drove off and soaked my body

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Moments....




2nd Day of summer and its hot but rainy however i spoke to a friend and we were talking about a death it made me think about when your sick who do you want next to you or by your side? it made me think about (A.T.J) laying there in a puddle of blood saying its going to be alright when i knew he was gone the most hurtful part is when they speak there last words " I love you baby don't cry its OK I'm OK" i still can hear that voice i still see the lights i still hear those sounds and i still feel the impact on my life. People always assume what someone feel or think there crazy when they just don't know or have no idea. Anyways i thought and i thought for a moment if i was to get sick who will i call on SMH 9 out of 10 _____________ that's crazy. that's the only name that came up so i say i guess cherish the moments you have with people because you never know when they will leave you. Anytime you see dire of any relationship try fixing it because that same person may be the one you call for at the END. (sigh)

Monday, June 7, 2010

OVERALL

three weeks ago it was told this is what i need today i can say no its not its crazy how one turn around can change allot of things in life i found it funny when my mom ask me why and how and all i can say is i don't know things happen but like she said my heart is big so ill always be bless anyways i have a friend i think about its crazy how you can be so in tuned into someone that you don't think about reality overall even when others dont care for people i still say there good peoples when i cleaned up the other day and i found some dental floss i found it so cute and funny all i thought about is my sweet tea from checkers that always cheer me up even tho i never used the floss

IN MY FEELINGS
I had a conversation with someone the other night i had to really step back and check out its easy gaining somebody trust but its hard to regain it but some people dont realize when others give you there trust its not that easy to just walk away it was said to me that there is a mystery to me its crazy because thats not the first time it was said the reason where the same the top reason was always said i dont express myself i hold allot in i know i keep things to myself but if anybody was to ask i never had a problem just saying it but you have to ask me and to me if you dont ask me anything you really not trying to know me so why bother

Brand new
i know it Monday so why not start off new i fell off for a minute but im about to regain myself slowly i was trying to find the inner me again i know i found it things take time but i know i got it and i know what i have to do about it

ENDING
This past year 1/2 i was deeply hurt i felt someone took everything from me but then i thought i found happiness which only i try to cover up with smiles i build up a wall but i forgot to leave the hurt on the other side but i can say i move on and i going to a place were i know i belongs i couldn't believe i let someone have that much control and i apologize cause i drag somebody along but im happy im free but if it was ment for me and that friend then it will be but im happy

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Thursday i got into an accident which it took me for a tour but over all this weekend was awesome ( I'm thankful to have you by my side) it was like everything was put to past with no worries even with confessions being put out there threw out the entire time but it was like it didn't even matter everything about this weekend felt so right even with Sunday being without it still didn't matter the space was cool but was needed damn! i haven't smiled like this in a while but now as i lay to sleep i pray lord that more of these days are to come i know we thank you in our own crazy way but we are thankful anyway night yal :-) :-)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

HONEY


I'm in my feelings for the next hour so ill express it all before i cover myself back up
it has finally came to past i have never been intimidated by another as long as i can remember i never felt threaten at all but i believe my time has came one thing i can say is GOD works in crazy ways the past three months i ran into ups and down many events took place but some were bitter so let me break them down

EVENT ONE : I went into a switch mood i had too! especially when your caught up. i did a 360 i just laid back and let everything take there course i made a promise that i plane on keeping(the 3rd month not hear yet) but it was the out come of it that made me realize some flaws about things its like when you put yourself in the front of it just to see if it will stand in front of you or step around you and personally i believe it jump over me when you fall into a zone that you trust your mind starts to believe that nobody else or word matters but when its broken that's when all the bull starts but i cant go too deep into details about that just let me end that with every time you walk out i try hard to forget it but "A house is not a home when I'm alone here"



Event Two: they thought i was crazy i went into a deep depression that i didn't want to be here i smiled everyday like i was okay but nobody not knowing that i was trying to kill myself i made sure papers was alright i pop pills ever night more than 300mg i slept with my gun in hand with my hand on the trigger but it never went off i let my lights and water go off on purpose i stop paying bills i really just didn't care i felt like i was here by myself i wanted to turn to the one i trusted dearly to but i couldn't cause they had there own up and down and i was trying to support them but i couldn't cause i couldn't support myself but for some reason the lord wouldn't let me go he sent one person that been around for years just never that close she made sure i was alright she didn't step over my path she let me pull out on my own but she didn't allow me to just fall i believe she was my angel for the time being because I'm suppose to be dead right now


Event Three (I submit): I'm not perfect and i MAKE MISTAKE BUT MY HEART IS PURE well at least it try to be its funny how you have so much but your sanity drive you away from it yeah i couldve of followed the star life but i choose not too everyone thinks money makes things happy i believe if i was still in the life style I'm already dead i know i m at the peek i should be and i know many expect more from me but its my life and i choose who i want in it because behind those walls you don't feel what i feel nor see what i see so don't judge me or what you think that would have been best for me


AS I'M WRITTEN THIS: I'm written and texten at the same time GOD only knows how much i care but its crazy how i try but still however this Sunday this person took every bit of my ego away from me its crazy and it hurts i mean really hurts to the point i want to cry but I'm cried out already i understand people see things and they take it the wrong way which happen everyday but i would have never thought that this person will allow another person to come in between and make a announcement with pride and they acknowledge it like "yeah" that's what it is then you talk about respect childddddddddddddd "truth be told" you acknowledge it so that's how you wanted it to be

At the End of The DAY!!
Im putting aside my feelings im not going to try anymore if it happens it happens i have a project that im working on and i need too put these proposal together so everything can fall into place yes i may have fail back some but it was experience i had to take now that im back in control of me then i don't have the problem of holding it back and letting it out my happiness is what i want and i know were i want to spend it its within my confront zone its just allowing the inner soft me play its role but still stand on my two feet



Tuesday, May 11, 2010

VENTING


Lately ive been thinking i let my emotions get the best of me i was willing and able to lay it on the line but uck! this you gives a two ish if its ment to be it will be im tired of other in my ear about old news tell me something new and good or dont tellme nothing at all people change over the ears so what i could of married a NFL player bu i chosed not to i guess you rather see me dead for abuse so what i dated the self employed it wasnt a issued when i gave 14 stacks and never ask it back and yeah so what i fell in love with an ego thats just like mines im attach to it cause he humbles mines i never ask to be who i am im just am who i am so let me role call this 1. yeah im not in the studio anymore but i still hit the bars ever now and then 2. yeah i step out the box before but it wasnt with you 3. yes he played for UM and got drafted this year but no me and his friend are not dating i just did an essay paper dont get it twisted 4. Yes me and tonio have our ups and down but ill always love him for who he is 5. how the hell do yall find out information its not that much google in the world .
I GOTTA GO BUT TILL NEXT TIME ILL JUST SEE YOU WITH THE EMAILS

Friday, April 9, 2010

CAUSE IM ME


Imma heavy thinker... deep lover... so worldly undercover... freedom fighter... peacemaker... wide-eyed closed mouth she is... open-hearted... experience seeker.. forever in love... pain taker... thick-skinned... shit talker... truth teller... I got wisdom within... full of outwardly strength... house performer... mirror dancer... quietly creative... cat walker... dog keeper... man stealer...money spender... heartbreaker... season changer... life traveler... always discovering... constant reader... comedic words I spit... super fresh... nothing less than the best... highly favored and divinely blessed... I'm too f*ckin much

"So pretty, so fine, so beautiful my smile. So lady, so crazy, so classy, so sexy, so cute, so clean, that ass, those jeans." Damn! Yeah thats Me...
-Bluejean Jones

...and yeah I gotta big ego... such a huge ego... but guess what?

Two tears in a bucket... F*ck It!

"So please mamacita please no envy, when u come around it bees no intrigue... who's next to go? My flow so flexible... get gased then get at me... Texaco... shoot urself in the leg... Plaxico!"
-Nicki Minaj

My love is deeper, tighter, sweeter, higher, flyer...
Didn't u know this..? Or didn't u notice?
-Jill

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

61 days in camp

Sixty – one days to get it all back together mentally, physically, and emotionally Damn! Kix how the hell you’re going to pull this one off? Oh well I just have too do what I have to do its all about me. some people that’s around me may start thinking im being selfish but if you know "me" as me you should know im far from selfish but its time for me to take care of me I have things to do and they been push back for a while sorry folks I have to make it better so I can be happy with me. I’m more than just a pretty smile with pretty eyes its so much work that has not been done because I made the choice of taken steps back, within these last 4 years I have been threw my up and down. I carried a dude that didn’t appreciated that it wasn’t about money with me anymore ( I always had my account and shoe box full) I went into deep like with someone but there insecurity drove me away (I needed a friend not a lover ) but this last year I gained a friend that I appreciate more than ever. Even when emotions get the best, but that’s just how it goes. He’s a friend that I will always appreciate and no matter how hard and harsh the world talks bad they still haven’t broken us apart. Thanks! xoxo However its crazy how small things can appear and take you on a life turn but I learn so much but im ready I found me the ambition always been there but these next 61 days we shall see im all for me and if you lose me within this time period trust me your not meant to be surrounded by me but at least I know one person no matter what will be standing! (all smiles )

Saturday, March 20, 2010

glad

Just left the studio and i tell you I'm tired as heck i had a quick meeting well sit in for big uncle i tell you i don't miss that world at all and so GLAD i didn't get in so deep today was long and short in a way i didn't really get to do what i needed to do for myself but hey sometimes you have to do your dues to get your dues I'm so GLAD I'm not part of this market group even tho its healthy its still crazy.....



IN OTHER NEWS
i met one of the ceo from.... today unexpectedly just me being me our conversation ended at least 2hr after the simple "hello" everybody talks bad about him but he is totally so cool and I'm not going to lie some of the knowledge he spoke to me was so awesome i mean its so crazy how a simple hello beautiful can lead into such a deep spiritual learning experience but I'm GLAD for it and thankful


STEP OUT
Well my clown out buddy is gone for the week on tour even tho the clean cut been busy I'm GLAD that that's my bruh bruh no matter how hard i think why it never amount to saying any goodbyes I'm so GLAD that i learn to place our friendship into a pocket and hold it even threw the emotional times when saying in my head: "is this jerk for real" but that's still my bruh bruh and i love every moment we share..




IN CLOSING

IM GOING TO THE MOVIES...... lol i been trying to go to the movies for 3 weeks now and have not made it but im going tonight and back to the house i was invited to a Private cow event but im tired i need my me time and relax after this movie "chow"

Thursday, March 4, 2010

CBR1000

They say i will fall off "thats funny" they say i will go broke "thats funny" they say i wont make it nor last
"thats funny"
It never amaze me how so many people try to bring you down just because there not........
(you know what i feel like telling a story)
I bought a CBR1000rr it was nice it rode smooth when i pick it up off the lot but once i rode it from the dealer the value of it drop but that wasn't the issue i rode this bike everyday too the point that i forgot about my car i was so in tune with the Honda to the point that this bike was all that matter but as i put miles on the bike i enjoyed the ride but the minor things were not being like the tune up as in oil changes making sure the anti-freeze is there changing the tires lubricating the chain and i even think the sprocket however in so many word this bike became a toy you can say it didn't ride the same as when i first got i don't know if its because i allowed so many others to ride on it race with it or just let it sit but its funny cause even tho it sit in the garage i still make sure its clean i think i clean it cause when it comes down to it its still my bike even tho i let everybody ride it and only act like i care about it when something goes wrong with it and i don't want to pay for it but at the end of the day i its still my bike but at this moment i have to end this and go down stairs and jump on this R6

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

AND THE WINNER IS

"WOW " you dumb or something you cant read in between the lines" (smh )word can be harsh especially when you have no idea whats going on people amaze me what they think its always laugh and smiles on the outside but never the concern in the inside many people surround themselves around just because of the "image". I alone have never been concern about a image but sometimes that inner ego takes control and you forget the small things that counts i do believe a heart can be mend back together but you have to allow it to happen they say you scream we scream but I'm not screaming I'm talking i take in consideration all that's going on but competition i will never be part of i understand life is a challenge but sometimes you have too sit back and watch I stand alone for who i am. I know things get ruff but i am the type of person that will stick it out to the end without any reasonable doubt










~~~~~~~~~~~~~~IN OTHER NEWS~~~~~~~~~~
I'm juggling between going left and right and its hard not knowing the next steps i smile all day but when i get in my feelings and thoughts its hard cause no one actually see the pain I'm not happy at all but the act of being happy fulfill allot but it still comes back so I'm asking what should i do i know I'm not perfect but I'm passionate i use o find myself working three jobs just not to think about it especially when i didn't need it i just wanted the time to go back and its crazy cause i start back on Sunday what am i to do when there is no shoulder to lean on.....
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