i never said it like I'm about to say it now but its time i free myself its so much anger and bitterness build in me that i have to release it or ill kill myself on it alone maybe someone understand i cry out for help but it seems no one hears me i cry at night but there no one to wipe the tears i know they say when your at that point pray to GOD but how could that be when i blame him for being rape at the age of 12 by my mother best friend son i was so afraid there was nothing i could do i wanted to say something so bad but i didn't i was afraid every time we went north i hated to go i never forgot that night i cried i was only a little girl every time i look into his eyes knowing what he did to me i never wanted my mom and her friend to leave so i can kill him and let him suffer i wanted to let him feel what i felt and feel at night when we went north i stayed up at night everyday i got up with a knife wising and hoping he will touch me again so i can cut every piece of flesh and laugh and ask him how do It feel but he never touch me again i believe he seen the anger in my eyes and still till this day i still feel the same thing for him nobody knows what goes on behind my smile
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Baby girl GOD will answer your prayers when u least expect it. Whatever u ask for ask in the name of the JESUS CHRIST and your prayers shall be answered.
Oops.. Dat wuz me white grl dat jus wrote dat..
U sy no 1 is there 2 wipe ur tears but God is.. Dont blame him God allows things 2 happen in r lives kiki 2 make us stronger and 2 look 4 him.. If God did not love u where do u think u would b if he allowd u 2 hurt that boy or urself.. Ma I lov u like if u was blood and I am here 4 u.. Ma trust that God is takn care of that matter as far as the boy is consernd.. I know its hard 2 4get the past but focus on the future.. lve u white girl!
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